I am a 27 yo female with a history of panic/anxiety attacks, slight mitral regurgatation and enlarged heart. I last went to the cardiologist in 2008 and was told my heart was back to normal size, and the regurgitation of my mitral valve was all but gone. I took myself off of my medication because it was very expensive and could not afford it. I was taking beta blockers and ace inhibitors, but felt as if these medications helped substantially given that i no longer suffered from high blood pressure.
My problem is this:
Every once in a while, I will get panic attacks which manifest in the form of anxiety, fast heart rate, pressure headaches, feeling that something is wrong with my heart and a fear of sleeping.
For the past couple of days, I have been experiencing pressure in my chest when I lay down to go to sleep, along with difficulty breathing, fear of falling asleep, and a small flutter in what appears to be a valve in my heart (as if it is going to simply give out). During the day time, I feel a pending sense of fear that I have something wrong with my heart, a slow heart beat (sometimes), a sense of dreaminess (like whatever I am doing is not real), a gurgling sensation in all areas of my abdomen, abdominal tenderness when I press my stomach, a slight pressure on the left side of my heart. I can not afford to go to the doctor, and it scares me because it feels like the right side of my heart is not pumping or something.
I am convinced I will die and do not know what to do.
Any ideas what it is?