I had a heart attack three years ago, when I was 34. I have none of the usual red flags, and I'm adopted so I don't have any genetic history. I don't smoke, never have, although both parents did while I was growing up. I used to eat terribly (through my 20's and 30's), but I've cleaned that up substantially. My cholesterol was not high when I had the heart attack, although HDL was 34, pretty low.
I had 100% blockage in the left descending artery, and 30% blockage of another artery (don't remember which), and all other arteries are clear. I had an angioplasty and a medicated stent inserted.
Since then, I was on ACE inhibitors for about a year, but developed a dry cough and had to discontinue them. I also take Crestor 20mg, Toprol XL 25mg, Aspiring 81mg, Plavix 75mg, and Niaspan 1000mg, all daily. Additionally I take 2000iu of Vitamin D (started 3 months ago), and 3600mg of Fish Oil. I also take an oil based multivitamin and an additional 1000mg of vitamin C.
My current cholesterol scores are HDL 51, LDL 54, Triglycerides 120, and overall score of 132.
The problem I'm having is that about 5 months ago I ran out of Toprol and started to have weird back pains, dizziness, etc, for the 5 days I was off of it.
Ever since then, I've become obsessed with the idea that I'm going to die, and not just someday, but TODAY. I can't sleep because I'm convinced that I'll have a heart attack and die in my sleep. I can't work because all I do is read online about how my meds are not effective and cause other problems that are worse. I don't know if I'm depressed or not, but I cry sometimes just thinking about not being able to see my daughter grow up, and I can't shake this feeling of impending doom, even though I've modified my diet and I have been walking at least 40 minutes a day.
I guess a big part of it is that I don't know what the survival rates are for someone my age that is at their BMI and is doing everything in their power to stay alive. I feel like I'm sinking deeper and deeper into a pit everyday. Help?