I am a Christian and have been for a while, but earlier this year I started developing severe anxiety disorder that would actually get worse when I prayed or thought about God. This seems really weird, but it started happening while I was on Cortislim, so I'm wondering if it is caffeine related.
Anyways, when I go to pray, I feel like I'm goin to jump out of my skin, feel like escaping, lashing out, are these all typical anxiety symptoms or something else?
My theory is that I'm just extremely anxious and it manifests itself during prayer, because I worried a lot for a while about prayer...
I know it's not anything spiritual, ie. possession and what not, because ive had periods of relief on certain medications. Before, it only used to happen during PMS, but its gotten worse and more frequent. I felt relief on Geodon and Lexapro. I dont know what to do anymore? im scared...i want to be able to pray again and read the bible w/o feeling like I'm goin to flipout. If anyone mentions anything religion related to me, I get anxious (really attentive...heart starts pounding...) is this completely abnormal?